Anonyme
My grandfather's hands
had a language of their own.
Thick-fingered, unhurried,
they knew how to fix things:
the hinge that kept sticking,
the radio that picked up static.
He never explained.
He just started working,
and you watched if you wanted,
and sometimes you learned.
I find myself now
doing the same small repairs.
The same unhurried movements.
The same refusal to stop
until the thing works properly
or decides it won't,
and even then
there is no frustration.
Just a look.
A pause.
The same calm consideration
of what else might be tried.
I don't know if this is grief,
exactly.
It doesn't feel like grief.
It feels more like inheritance.
Like something passed on
not through words or will
but through the hands,
through repetition,
through standing next to someone
while they work.
Through watching long enough
that the body remembers.
I fixed the kitchen drawer yesterday.
The one that sticks in summer.
I used his method.
I don't know how I knew it.
My hands knew.
His hands knew.
Somewhere in between,
something was kept.